Ataraxia – أتاراكسيا Lyrics – Abyusif – أبيوسف

Ataraxia – أتاراكسيا Lyrics Meaning

[المقطع الأول]
The singer talks about how his free time turns dark and empty, and how he feels like he’s being punished by life. He’s carrying anger and worries, feeling stuck between his problems and the world behind him. At some point, he tries to throw away his heavy burden and escape, almost like he’s floating above everything. Still, he feels a barrier between himself and others, and he believes he’s the reason for that distance. Life gives him chances, but he keeps ending up with regret. He dreams of many things but doesn’t fight for them. As people’s voices fade, his own thoughts get louder, and he feels numb, like he’s living through real struggles rather than making music. What’s left of him doesn’t feel like his true self anymore.

[اللازمة]
He describes a loneliness that suffocates him, leaving him stuck with the voices in his head for company. For years, he hasn’t understood who he is, where he’s going, or what he’s doing with his life. This cycle repeats, making him feel trapped with his own thoughts.

[المقطع الثاني]
He reflects on how doubt and tough circumstances taught him to suppress his feelings and live with bad luck. People judged him harshly and made him feel broken. Still, the things that touch his heart help push away some of the pain. He talks about his journey from being an unknown version of himself to becoming Abyusif, and how fear may have delayed him. He says his face shows everything he has lived through. His voice once lied, pretending he didn’t feel, but now he admits he does. Fame and reputation come at the cost of time and energy, and he reminds himself to take care of his mind to stay healthy. Dreams feel real at night, but reality takes years to catch up, and that’s how life works. If someone relates to him, it means they’re lonely too, which becomes their own struggle. People say you want to be remembered when you grow older, but he never paid much attention to what people said. They label him crazy or normal, but he only understands a little of it. People talk a lot, but he’s never been someone who listens.

[اللازمة]
He talks again about loneliness tightening around him while the voices in his head keep him company. He has spent years not knowing who he is or what direction his life is going. This feeling repeats, showing how stuck he is inside his own thoughts.

[المقطع الثالث]
He wonders if he’s the quiet person who sits aside, taking hits from life without understanding why. He sees signs around him but can’t interpret them, so he keeps stopping. Or maybe he’s the stubborn one who refuses to give up, doesn’t trust the future, and rises without falling back, acting like nothing matters.

[جسر]
He says things don’t really change because whatever is inside stays inside—anger and frustration he can’t hide. Nothing ever seems to work out. When someone calls him cold, he admits they’re not wrong. His mind drifts off easily, and he carries his worries like a heavy load being lifted by a crane.

[اللازمة]
He repeats the feeling of loneliness pressing on him while the voices in his head keep him company. For years, he hasn’t known who he is, where he belongs, or what he’s doing. This confusion keeps circling back, leaving him stuck in the same mental space.