Apple Lyrics – Charli XCX, The Japanese House

Apple Lyrics Meaning

[Intro]
In the intro, the singer reflects on how a relationship has changed their perception of themselves. They’ve spent so much time focused on the other person that they’ve lost sight of who they are. This repetition emphasizes a feeling of being consumed by the relationship, suggesting that their identity has become intertwined with someone else’s, leading to a sense of disconnection from themselves.

[Chorus]
In the chorus, the singer expresses a deep curiosity about their former partner’s emotional state. They wonder where this person goes when they’re feeling lonely and if they think about them too. This longing for understanding highlights a feeling of abandonment and the desire to connect, revealing that despite moving on, they still care about the other person’s well-being. The repeated line about only seeing themselves underlines a struggle to reconcile their own feelings in the aftermath of the relationship, emphasizing the emotional impact of the separation.

[Refrain]
In the refrain, the singer confronts the sadness that the relationship has caused. They acknowledge that their partner’s actions have deeply affected them, making them feel sad and lost. The repetition of the lines highlights the pain of unreciprocated feelings and the emotional burden of remembering how they were hurt. It captures a cycle of hurt where they want to understand their ex’s feelings but are also stuck in their own sadness, unable to fully move on.

[Verse 1]
In this verse, the singer reveals they’ve relocated and moved on, even finding a new partner that the ex has never met. However, they still ignore calls from the ex, knowing that answering might bring back painful memories. This shows a conflict between wanting to let go and the lingering attachment to the past, suggesting that moving on is more complicated than it seems.

[Chorus]
This chorus reiterates the singer’s need for closure and understanding. They keep asking where their ex goes when feeling alone, showing a desperate need for connection and insight into their former partner’s emotions. The repetition of “I’ve been looking at you so long, now I only see me” emphasizes their struggle with identity and loneliness after the breakup. It reveals how deeply the relationship affected their self-image and highlights a persistent longing to know if their ex thinks of them in moments of solitude, reinforcing their emotional turmoil.

[Refrain]
In this refrain, the singer articulates the profound sadness that their ex has caused. The repeated phrases underscore the emotional weight of the memories, revealing a connection between their partner’s actions and the sadness they feel. There’s an ongoing struggle with these feelings, as they still want to understand where their ex finds solace during lonely times. The repetition amplifies the emotional impact, conveying how much they still think about the relationship and the pain it brought, despite trying to move on.

[Verse 2]
In this verse, the singer is confronted by someone who asks about their ex, but they offer a facade, saying everything is fine. This highlights their struggle to deal with lingering emotions and the difficulty of moving on. They try to push thoughts of their ex away but find it almost impossible, indicating that the memories and feelings still dominate their mind, showcasing how hard it is to truly let go.

[Refrain]
The refrain revisits the themes of sadness and longing, emphasizing how deeply the ex has impacted the singer’s emotional state. The repeated lines about sadness highlight the overwhelming feeling of being stuck in the past, constantly reminded of the hurt they’ve experienced. This part reflects the complexity of their emotions—while they want to move on, they’re still grappling with the pain that their ex caused. It’s a cycle of sadness and longing that continues to define their feelings, making it clear that closure is still elusive.

[Outro]
In the outro, the singer expresses feelings of displacement and loneliness, indicating that returning home no longer feels comforting. The mention of packing and driving suggests a desire for escape, as if the physical act of driving could provide emotional relief. The repetition of wanting to drive emphasizes a need for freedom and a break from their current emotional state. This final part captures the essence of seeking solace and distance from their painful memories, illustrating a longing to find a place where they can feel at peace.