1 Hellavah Life Lyrics – Lil Poppa

1 Hellavah Life Lyrics Meaning

[Chorus: Lil Poppa]
Lil Poppa is trying to escape his reality for the night. He doesn’t want to go home because that probably means facing things he’s not ready to deal with. Instead, he grabs a Styrofoam cup with ice and mixes something strong into his drink—most likely lean, which changes the color of the soda. It’s his way of coping, of making a small celebration out of the pain and struggle he’s lived through. Even though he knows doing wrong doesn’t fix anything, he still leans into it because trying to fix things feels pointless. He’s numb, pushing feelings away, and accepting life as it comes. He reassures others—and maybe himself—that he’s okay, even though deep down he might not be. Love isn’t on his mind either; he’s not chasing it.

[Verse 1: Lil Poppa]
He starts off by saying he’s been relying on drügs and missing people he’s lost, especially close friends. He talks to heaven as if he’s trying to reach out to them but feels like no one’s listening. The “double cup” refers again to lean, and he’s using it to calm himself, showing that even though things are rough, he’s trying to stay okay. He bought a weapon for his younger brother, showing how dangerous his world is—safety is a real concern. He throws in a clever line about not chasing girls and says he’s too focused on his grind for that. When you work hard for something, success isn’t optional—it becomes part of you. He wants his son to grow up with everything he needs but also learn to be patient. He’s dressing him well and preparing him for a better life. Poppa believes he’s destined for greatness and always felt it deep down. He touches on heartbreak too, saying love feels transactional—he gave his heart but isn’t getting anything back. Now he only feels connected when it’s physical. It’s a raw and honest reflection of pain and survival.

[Chorus: Lil Poppa]
Poppa repeats the feeling of not wanting to head home, which likely means facing personal pain or loneliness. Instead, he turns to his usual way of coping—lean mixed in his drink—changing the color of his Sprite. That act becomes symbolic of transforming his emotions. He makes a toast, not to joy or love, but to the wild and painful journey he’s had. Though he knows his choices aren’t always right, he feels stuck in them. Things being “out of sight, out of mind” shows he’s trying to forget and avoid. He calls trying a waste of time, meaning he’s tired of putting energy into things that don’t change. He tells himself he’s doing fine and doesn’t need to rush into anything, especially love, which he’s not even looking for at this point.

[Verse 2: Yungeen Ace]
Yungeen Ace jumps in with a heavy heart. He’s had to cut off a lot of people, likely fake friends or those who didn’t have his best interest at heart. He says he’s almost back to feeling normal, but even that feels like a struggle. His whole life has been filled with depression, and though he smiles on stage, it’s just a mask. He’s lived through a lot—things people wouldn’t understand unless they were in his shoes. His city and his past have been full of violence and pain, and he doubts many could survive it. He opens up to his mom, admitting he’s not okay and could die at any moment. He’s grieving his brother Kso deeply, someone he saw as unbreakably loyal. That heartbreak has made him give up on love. He doesn’t want to feel anything anymore and has become numb to protect himself. Loyalty matters more than love now. And with everything he’s faced, he won’t move through the world unarmed—his guns are his protection, both literally and emotionally.

[Chorus: Lil Poppa]
Once again, Lil Poppa brings back the same feeling—wanting to stay out and avoid going home, which probably holds memories or emotions he doesn’t want to face. He turns to his drink, changing the Sprite’s color with lean, using that moment to toast to everything he’s been through. He admits life hasn’t been easy, and while wrong choices won’t make things better, it’s what he’s leaning on right now. He questions when things will ever feel “normal” again, like he’s waiting for peace that might never come. He pushes away thoughts and feelings, saying trying feels useless. Still, he insists he’s doing okay on the surface and doesn’t feel any rush to fix things or find love. He’s just moving through life one step at a time.