ビバリウム (Vivarium) Lyrics (English Translation) – Ado

[Verse 1]
How long has it been since that day slipped away?
My muffled words still haven’t found their way
The mirror shows a dream I can’t become
Clumsy fingertips, I pick at them till they’re numb

[Verse 2]
With someone’s careless words, I’m cast aside alone
It’s nothing new, I’ve never been the chosen one
That stubborn red still clings beneath the screams
“Is broken something special?” so it seems
Then from the start, I’ve only been a counterfeit dream
[Pre-Chorus]
To reach for what I wanted most
I shattered everything I held close
Choking on regret I couldn’t breathe
So I threw my feelings out to finally be relieved
Never learned how to heal the wounds from falling down
Or face the guilt of every crack I left around
Is this how you become an adult somehow?

[Chorus]
In this dimly lit little boxed-in world
Endlessly I watched myself dream as that same lost girl
A trembling light was swaying far away
Like it was calling out my name

[Verse 3]
Before I knew it, I turned and I was here alone
A scattered room, a mirage I call my own
Why do these tears and restless fears overflow?
Bitten nails, my fingertips are red once more

[Bridge]
“I hear it echo in my head”
“A voice that isn’t mine instead”

“Again and again and again
It tells me I shouldn’t have been”
“Why can’t I do anything right?”
“Why don’t I know anything at all?”
“I don’t know, I don’t know”
“I really don’t know”
“Without a single truth to guide my way”
“I guess I just grew up this way”
“You never believed in a thing”
“You couldn’t believe in anyone”
“What you needed before any glory came
Was just one ‘it’s okay’ to ease the pain”
“Sorry I left you without a place to stay”
“So you don’t have to come out anymore, it’s okay”
“Deep in the heart of this trembling city glow
I heard a machine girl’s song below”
“I want to go there too”

[Chorus]
In this faintly shadowed boxed-in space
I keep on dreaming face to face
Stay close enough for me to feel
Don’t drift away, don’t ever change what’s real
Inside this tiny world of mine
No matter how I lose the signs
The swaying light within my sight
Is the future I drew that night
Goodbye, but still I
Have to keep singing, ahh

[Outro]
Until the dawn breaks through the blue
You’re not alone, I’m here with you
The you inside the closet still
Is crying quietly still