Terrified Lyrics – Tom MacDonald

Terrified Lyrics Meaning

In the first part, he talks about trying to stay sober but constantly running into temptations. Even when he tries to avoid drinking, alcohol somehow shows up around him, whether it’s in his fridge or when he’s hanging out with friends who are celebrating. He realizes that something he once loved so much has actually caused him a huge amount of pain. He remembers how early and casually he used to drink and smoke, almost like it was just part of his routine.

Then he moves into how he used to rely on substances just to start his day. He had heard that living fast and not worrying about the future was supposed to be exciting, but once he began to fall apart, it didn’t feel exciting at all. He felt broken, worn down, and mentally exhausted. A doctor told him that medication would fix things, giving him hope that pills might be the solution he needed.

As he continues, he explains that he tried taking the medication because he was desperate and felt like he had no other choice. Even though he followed the instructions carefully, the medication ended up making things worse. Now, even after being sober for years, every day still feels like a struggle. Each time he goes out, he passes places that remind him of drinking, and he hears that familiar inner voice encouraging him to fall back into old habits and “celebrate,” even though he knows that celebration would probably destroy everything he’s worked for.

In this part, he shares how people used to say he wouldn’t truly change until something terrible happened to him. That thought scares him, because deep down he worries they might be right. He doesn’t fully trust himself, but he refuses to give up. He’s afraid of failing, afraid of relapsing, and afraid that he won’t make it through the battle he’s fighting inside his own head.

He then goes back to talking about trying to quit, even if only for a day. He explains how tough it is to walk away from addictions that took years to grow. The environment doesn’t help either — alcohol is cheap, the bar staff know him, and falling back into old patterns feels way too easy. He remembers placing beer next to his bed just to get through the night and how out of control his habits had become. What once sounded like a cool lifestyle turned terrifying when he realized it was hurting his health and taking over his life.

Later, he talks about how he was given pills again to help calm his stress, but instead of helping, they worsened his emotional state. He felt lost, depressed, and trapped. Even so, after seven years of sobriety, he continues to push through the cravings. Passing liquor stores still triggers him, and that voice in his head tries to convince him to celebrate with a drink, even though he knows it’s a trap.

Toward the end, he admits he’s scared of the journey he’s on, but he’s committed to staying strong. He’s afraid of becoming the person he used to be, but he refuses to let that happen again. He wants to rise above his past and keep fighting, even if the fear never fully goes away.