IF Lyrics – ASH ISLAND

IF Lyrics Meaning

[Verse 1]
The singer talks about finally facing his feelings and trying to put his thoughts into words. Life feels empty since the person left about a month ago, and he still can’t accept what happened. He remembers all the seasons they shared, their warm closeness, and the painful memory of their final moments. He wishes it wasn’t real and wonders if things might have changed if they had spoken up about their struggles. He keeps asking himself whether he could have saved them and wishes he could return to that moment for even a short time.

[Pre-Chorus]
Their scent still lingers around the home, making everything feel unchanged. He wishes for just one more hug, and it feels like time has stopped inside their room, as if they never left.

[Chorus]
He wishes they had shared what they were going through, because the sudden goodbye still feels unreal. He feels deeply sorry for everything and holds onto the idea that they will always be his angel. Even though they’re gone, he wonders if he’ll ever see them again. He reminds himself that they loved him, but the loss still hurts. He misses them constantly and keeps thinking about how he can’t turn back time.

[Interlude]
He simply wants them to somehow know that he misses them more than he can express.

[Verse 2]
He questions how they disappeared so suddenly when it felt like they were just there. He spent countless nights praying for their return, stuck emotionally in that painful night. The same thoughts repeat in his mind—if he had known, maybe he could have helped. He wishes he could be taken back to that moment, even briefly, to try again and change what happened.

[Pre-Chorus]
Their familiar scent still fills the home, reminding him of their presence. He longs for one more embrace, and their room feels frozen in time, untouched and unmoving.

[Chorus]
He wishes they had reached out and shared their pain, because accepting their goodbye still feels impossible. He carries a heavy sense of guilt and calls them his angel, knowing they loved him. Even though they’ve already left, he quietly wonders if they could ever meet again. The ache of missing them never fades, and he keeps thinking about how there’s no way to rewind the past.