False self Lyrics – WILLOW

[Intro]
Okay
Ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh

[Verse 1]
I’ve decided that I don’t wanna justify it
Move in silence like an island that nobody wants to reside in
Just keep it quiet ’cause I don’t wanna feel defiled
Bruised ego like I’m a child
In your shoes, won’t last a mile
Or a few steps, a perfect test

Just a few steps, I’ll fall out the nest
I’m not gonna fight it, not gonna deny it

[Chorus]
I-I wanna crash, feel so attacked
On a mad dash in my own brain
I’m so attached, I’m so detached
Yeah, I don’t know, it’s all the same
Am I insane? Feel the answer change each day
Feel the answer change, I don’t wanna change, but I need to change
Feel the answer change, I don’t wanna change, but I need to change
How do I need to change? Ask myself the same every day

[Verse 2]
I tried to fight it
The truth came back to bite me
But I wanna feel it, wanna see it
Even though it eats me whole
I can’t escape the pull
Can’t escape the pull
I can’t tell that lie, not one more time
Think you know me, but you can’t see behind my eyes
My false self must die, it’s no surprise
I wanna know me, but I can’t hear my thoughts

[Chorus]
I wanna crash, feel so attacked
On a mad dash in my own brain
I’m so attached, I’m so detached
Yeah, I don’t know, it’s all the same
Am I insane? Feel the answer change each day
Feel the answer change, I don’t wanna change, but I need to change
Feel the answer change, I don’t wanna change, but I need to change
How do I need to change? Ask myself the same every day

[Verse 1]
The singer acknowledges a personal decision to refrain from justifying their actions or identity to others. They describe feeling isolated, like an uninhabited island, preferring to keep their thoughts and struggles to themselves to avoid feeling tainted or criticized. The reference to a bruised ego suggests past experiences of feeling inadequate or vulnerable. Despite the challenges, they accept their situation without resistance or denial.

[Chorus]
The chorus captures the singer’s internal turmoil and confusion. They express a desire to break free from their own thoughts and emotions, feeling overwhelmed by the intensity of their inner struggles. The conflicting feelings of attachment and detachment highlight their struggle to reconcile their emotions. They question their sanity as they grapple with the need for change while resisting it, experiencing a constant inner conflict and uncertainty about their identity and path forward.

[Verse 2]
Here, the singer reflects on their attempts to resist facing their truth, only to realize that avoidance only exacerbates their inner turmoil. Despite the discomfort, they express a desire to confront their emotions and experiences, even though doing so feels consuming. They feel trapped by their own thoughts and perceptions, unable to escape the relentless pull of self-discovery. The acknowledgment of a false self and the desire for its demise underscore their longing for authenticity and self-understanding.

[Chorus]
The repetition of the chorus reinforces the intensity of the singer’s internal struggle. They describe feeling overwhelmed and under siege by their own thoughts, unable to find clarity or peace. The juxtaposition of feeling both attached and detached from their emotions and identity highlights the complexity of their inner world. Despite their reluctance to change, they recognize the necessity of growth and self-awareness, grappling with the uncertainty of what that change entails.