Better Off Broken Lyrics – Citizen Soldier

Better Off Broken Lyrics Meaning

[Verse 1]
The singer walks into a therapist’s office, feeling anxious and unable to be honest about their emotions. When asked how they’re feeling, they struggle to answer, as all they can think about is shutting down emotionally. They question why they’re not “better” by now and feel like they should have healed already. The therapist tells them to be patient, but the emotional pain that’s been buried for years is slowly coming to the surface, leaving them exhausted. The weight of their past is too much to handle, making them feel overwhelmed.

[Pre-Chorus 1]
The singer feels overwhelmed and unprepared to face their emotional pain. The burden is too heavy, and they’re not ready to deal with it.

[Chorus]
The singer questions why healing has to be so difficult, and why numbness seems like the only thing that helps. When they hide their scars and emotions, they don’t have to feel the pain anymore. However, the constant emotional turmoil and the need to reopen their trauma is exhausting, making them wonder if they would be better off staying broken rather than facing the struggles of healing.

[Verse 2]
The singer expresses how even simple, everyday tasks are overwhelming. They don’t want to put in the effort to be mindful or face their emotions. They feel like they didn’t have control over their painful experiences, leading to a broken heart that makes life feel unfair. They wish they could be “normal” and deal with their pain like others, but they feel like they never have enough time to properly process their anger and grief. Basic functioning is becoming harder, and they long for more care and understanding from those around them.

[Pre-Chorus 2]
The singer isn’t ready to confront their pain yet. The emotional weight is too much, and they just want to be left alone, without being pushed to heal.

[Chorus]
Healing continues to feel incredibly hard, with numbness being the only coping mechanism that works. Hiding their scars allows them to avoid feeling the pain, but the repeated emotional turmoil and reliving past trauma leaves them exhausted. They wonder if they would be better off remaining broken instead of trying to heal and face the pain.

[Bridge]
The singer feels that therapy isn’t enough to help them heal, as one hour a week doesn’t give them the support they need. They are searching for concrete evidence that they can improve, but the emotional weight is too much. They know their negative thoughts might be lies, but they don’t have the energy to fight them. They fear that people are getting tired of their struggles, and they long for honesty and reassurance.

[Pre-Chorus 3]
The singer continues to question why healing is so hard and why numbness is the only way to cope. They would rather avoid the feelings altogether by swallowing their scars and emotions.

[Chorus]
Once again, the singer questions why healing is so difficult and why numbness is the only solution. By hiding their scars, they can avoid the pain. However, the constant cycle of reopening past wounds is tiring, leaving them wondering if staying broken is a better option than trying to heal.

[Outro]
The singer repeatedly wonders if they would be better off staying broken rather than facing the emotional pain of healing. They feel stuck in their struggle.