At My Worst Lyrics – NoCap

I’m at my worst but I would never show it, it’s simple
They did me dirty but i would never hold it against ’em
I’m having problems showing god that I’m really thankful
I’m way too fast to beat the block with all of my chains on
Not giving in, I’m taking on the pain that I’m made for
My realest friends, now they only call me for paper
I’m tryna vent but by the end they ask for a favor
Judge want me locked away, I had to pray to get a bond

Gang member to the state but I’m a father to my son
Killed slim ‘fore I could make, like I’m balling for nothing
No one would listen to me ‘less I’d go and make a song

So I went and made a song

It goes something like
We tired of dying, we tired of crying
Let the hood sing
We tired of dying, we tired of crying
Let the hood sing

I’m on the stage, I had to duck the rifles and the choppers
I’m with cortez but somehow still ain’t got it right with gwala
I don’t agree with ? but that’s still my partner
(??) t always told me I would be somebody
I was a kid when they killed fred, I wish jail on his killers
Then I got older and noticed it’d be better if I kill ’em
Mama do whatever she can, but it’s hard without no figure
So when she get her income text, that’s when we celebrate christmas

’til this day I still call ? my father
Even though I found out that he ain’t my pops for real
I’m thankful for that pain, it turned me into a monster
N!gga, in other words, that’s what really got me here

I’m still your son, n!gga
I swear to god, i-i bleed this (??), s*it, I bleed this shark s*it
Raised me and slim like we was real brothers

I’m tryna find out who did that to him
Made my rap ’bout it too much
N!ggas gon’ take it to they headstone
I’m on the top floor with three $luts
My baby mama say I’m dead wrong
You know I really can’t say much
But I’ve been aiming at the innocent ’bout you, dog
’bout you, dog, ’bout you, dog, ’bout you, dog
Not my dog, not my dog, not my dog
I’m screaming not my dog

Shy introduced me as her brother then we end up f**king
I should’ve kept it in my pants ’cause now I lost a friend
The beef was deep around that time, (??)
This before ? had a kid
At this time I don’t even think lil’ e was popping pills
This before lI’mical perine hit the nfl
And tell chanel I’m growing up, I’m finally being fair
I brought you so many problems, tell jack I asked about him
We come from a small city, my brother had my position
I’ll never roll against you, I’ll never roll against you
Heard lil’ ? caught a body
Imagine that when we was sitting in front of ? house
Wonder why I sit in silence
’cause it’s some s*it that I ain’t get to talk to duke about
Never thought that jay would move on
But, girl, that n!gga better treat you right
And I get this feeling I’m alone just like up on the tail lights