ANTIDEPRESSIV Lyrics – Richter

ANTIDEPRESSIV Lyrics Meaning

[Part 1]
Richter is describing a state of inner conflict and confusion. When he should speak up, he finds himself unable to, staying silent instead. Even when he knows he’s on the right path, he second-guesses himself and turns around. He becomes indifferent and stops listening when he realizes people are lying to him. Seeing things others don’t makes him so angry he feels like he’s going blind with rage. He questions why he perceives things differently, why others celebrate things he finds foolish, and why people destroy lives from childhood. He’s baffled by those who act tough but are actually weak. His mind is overwhelmed with thoughts that won’t let him rest. His struggle isn’t about what he needs to do, but how he can achieve it. Despite having no strength left, people keep telling him to keep going. He feels stuck in a nightmare from which he can’t wake up, indicating his sense of hopelessness and perpetual struggle.

[Pre-Hook]
Richter feels like he’s going in circles in life, even though he’s trying to find his own way. He continues living his life, but his deep crises and lack of love push him to rely on antidepressants to cope.

[Hook]
Richter expresses that even though he may not cry, he still feels deep pain. He might not say anything, but he’s not okay. He hides his suffering, and this hidden pain is his way of dealing with things. His silence and lack of visible emotion don’t mean he’s not hurting; it’s just how he copes. This repeated refrain highlights the internal battle between appearing fine and actually dealing with significant emotional pain. Richter’s way of dealing with his emotions is to internalize them, which might make it seem like he’s unaffected, but he’s actually struggling a lot.

[Part 2]
In this part, Richter reveals his tendency to lie about his feelings when asked, saying he’s fine even when things are terrible. He avoids talking because, in the end, he feels unsupported. He questions why he gets involved with the wrong people and wonders why he’s the only one thinking they could be friends. Disappointment keeps catching up with him despite trying to escape it. He apologizes but decides he needs to start saying no for his own well-being. This decision might seem selfish, but he can’t continue as he has been. It’s been a long time since he’s prioritized himself. He asserts that he’s always been there for others, especially when they couldn’t manage, implying that he’s often overlooked his own needs in favor of helping others. This realization leads him to set boundaries and prioritize his own mental health.

[Pre-Hook]
Richter describes his life as a repetitive cycle, despite trying to find his own path. He lives his life, hoping it will bring happiness, but his deep crises and lack of love force him to rely on antidepressants to manage his emotions.

[Hook]
Richter reiterates that he might not show his pain through tears or words, but that doesn’t mean he isn’t suffering. His method of coping involves hiding his true feelings, which might make it seem like he’s okay when he’s really not. This repetition emphasizes the contrast between his outward appearance and inner turmoil. He stresses that his way of dealing with pain is internal, and just because he doesn’t openly express his emotions doesn’t mean he’s not experiencing them deeply.