A9RASS Lyrics – Draganov

A9RASS Lyrics Meaning

[Hook]
Right now, I’ve got pills in my pocket just to stop my mind from wandering and losing control. I’m trying to look normal like everyone else, even though inside, I’m not. For three years, I’ve been stuck in this lost, empty feeling.

[Verse 1]
He’s describing how he feels like a ghost, holding hands with his own sadness and seeing his pain clearly like a mirror. His brain has sworn not to shut down, but his body is exhausted and doesn’t cooperate anymore. He tries to laugh and act normal so people around him don’t leave when things get tough. He hides behind a mask because he doesn’t want anyone to know how broken he is inside. At this point, nothing really moves him anymore, he’s just pretending. He knows his life has become a mess, but he still holds on to the hope he had before, believing he had a future even when it was small and uncertain. Back then, he had faith in what he had, even if it wasn’t much, without worrying too much about what tomorrow would bring.

[Hook]
He repeats how he’s carrying pills with him because otherwise, his mind would lose it. He wants to appear like a regular person among others. For three years now, he’s been dragging himself through a dark, confusing time, feeling stuck and trying to look like everything’s fine.

[Bridge]
He’s saying he never changed his number even after they all grew up and faced real-life problems. Only the number of enemies increased on his list. He still hasn’t fully woken up, it’s like he’s under hypnosis. He reminds himself to take care of his health because he’s aware of how messed up things are and how dangerous the situation can get.

[Verse 2]
His body is shutting down and feels like it needs to recharge, but he’s too tired to even do that. He’s forgotten about everything, even his close friends, and now it’s just him and the idea of death standing face-to-face. People around him expect the old version of him, but he’s not the same anymore. He used to walk through life blindly, lost and broken, but now he’s more grounded, refusing to disappear or hide. He just wants to live a simple, normal life, jump over this one hurdle, and find some peace. But he realizes he’s already late, and the losses are everywhere. They used to think they could beat the odds, but life kept throwing obstacles. Even when he dreams, it feels like he’s stuck under pressure, and even if he stays strong, the noise and chaos are always there.

[Hook]
Again, he talks about carrying pills to keep his mind stable, to stop himself from spiraling out. He’s trying hard to blend in and seem normal like everyone else. The same dark feelings have been haunting him for three years straight, and he’s just been trying to survive through it all.

[Outro]
He finishes by repeating that he didn’t change his number, even though problems and enemies grew over time. He’s still stuck in a half-awake, half-dreaming state, like under hypnosis. He reminds himself once again to protect his health because the danger is real, and he’s surrounded by bad vibes and negativity.