Ellen (Rap La Rue) Lyrics – Elly

Ellen (Rap La Rue) Lyrics Meaning

[Part 1]
The artist is painting a picture of her childhood, growing up in an old, run-down house on the edge of the city. There was a lifeless tree next door and broken windows, just like their worn-out clothes. They had no heating, only old floral blankets to stay warm. But her real fear didn’t come from the cold or the house — it came from feeling out of place. In school, she was treated differently. No one played with her or understood her. She felt lonely and isolated, wondering who could fix the emotional cracks inside her. Looking at old pictures is the only way she can cope. Some memories are buried deep, but they still weigh on her. It’s like being trapped under a heavy ceiling, hoping for a miracle in a place that feels cold and lifeless.

[Hook]
She’s talking to her younger self, Ellen, wishing she could stay a child for as long as possible. That innocence is precious. She still wears her childhood necklace and tries to remind herself that things weren’t all bad. Even though she carries deep emotional scars, she knows it wasn’t her younger self’s fault. This is her way of offering comfort and healing to the child she once was, still holding on to that small hope.

[Part 2]
Every day at noon, even when it was freezing, she and her mom would wait at the train station, but her dad never came home from his early shift. She was too little to understand what was going on, but that feeling of being let down stuck with her for years. As a child, she looked innocent, with big eyes, but inside she had huge fears that only grew stronger in the cold. She often wished she could be someone else — prettier, richer, more perfect — chasing unrealistic beauty standards. These thoughts have followed her for years like a game of tag. Still, deep down, her gut tells her to love herself despite her flaws. But when she looks in the mirror, it feels like she’s staring at an enemy. A lot of memories are blurry since she was around thirteen, and emotionally, she’s felt stuck in silence since childhood.

[Hook]
Again, she speaks gently to young Ellen, asking her to stay a child as long as she can, holding on to the necklace and the past. She tries to comfort herself by saying things weren’t that terrible, even if the pain runs deep. She repeats that none of what happened was ever Ellen’s fault, reminding herself of the innocence that deserves protection.