Lunatic Lullaby Lyrics – Inpatient, Ren, Chris Webby

[Verse: Ren]
I remember swinging like a pendulum by my umbilical cord
The surgeon held me up proudly like a prized fish
And all I could think was put me back, put me back
To be violently ejected from the safety of the womb
Into this Tartarian nightmare felt cruel
I looked up at my mother
Once my home and now the orchestrator of my exile and I felt deserted
I’d feel this feeling again
With everyone that I’d ever love
I rеmember summoning a burst of air from my diaphragm
And it ripped through thе tightly strung fibers of my vocal chords
And I made a terribly repugnant sound
A giant ugly, gloved hand hoisted my tiny, writhing body onto a sterilised surface
And began hacking at my umbilical cord with a stainless steel scalpel
Who were these barbarians that would sever me from my one avenue of nourishment?
I was passed back to my mother
And she looked down at me and she smiled
How can you smile at a time like this?
What is this world?
I quickly realised that I did not belong here
The one thing that brought solace, that brought peace
Was the rhythmic beat emanating from my mother’s heart monitor
I remember it clearly now
It beat like a metronome
Steady, rhythmically
And all of a sudden, I could hear music
Yeah, I could hear music
And in that music I could hear the heartbeat of the universe
Primal, connected, formless yet with form
Empty spaces filled with bursts of matter
And I was enamoured, I was in awe
I was at the altar of gods
I knew I had to pursue this feeling every day
Or I would surely die